It's not just a Phase

Everybody has gone through a difficult phase in their lives, some have conquered it, some have helped others and some are still caught in that phase. This is the story of a Hero who has gone through and fought against mental illness which had disguised itself as just another phase.

30 June, 2021

Everyone has different difficult phases in their lives; so did I. Only thing that matters is that how you come out of it.


I remember being a kid so enthusiastic, readily taking on new challenges in life, acing everything I did and wanting to be better. Until one day, I woke up with a heavy heart. I don't know what was wrong, but all I wanted was to stay in bed forever and ever. And it suddenly hit me that I had been feeling this way for quite some time now. I was in the 12th grade and my academics has started suffering. But I just kept going thinking "It's just a phase, it will pass".


I completed my 12th, went on to college, started working, but this phase never ended. Everyday I'd wake up thinking about how things could have been if I had made better choices. I'd pick fights hoping that someone would hit me hard enough that the next day wouldn't come. And I'd cry myself to sleep at night, just not wanting to wake up the next day. But at the same time, I was too good at hiding, over the course of 5 years, I didn't let anybody know how much I hated myself and my life, neither my parents nor my friends. And every time I tried talking about it, for some reason I would just stop myself, thinking "I shouldn't bother them with this".


And one day I met a childhood friend after long time, somehow he saw through me and knew that something was wrong, he noticed my self-sabotaging behavior and helped me realize how this behavior is affecting my daily life.

Until no time, he encouraged me to book an appointment with an expert – Psychologist. I was far too reluctant to go but he was there like a rock accompanying me to every session, until I was ready to deal with my issues. After a few sessions of therapy, I started seeing the change in myself though it was taking time I was still motivating myself to becoming better, He observed and said few words which I still remember he said "You are healing and healing is a process, it will take time, you just have to stick to it."


Today after over a year of regular therapy sessions, with the help of my therapist and the support of my friend, I no longer cry myself to sleep. I wake up thinking that today is a new day, today is a new opportunity to do anything I want.

Yes there are difficult situations in everyone's life, I would not say be like me, but I would encourage you to become like my friend without whom my healing process would have never take place. Be a helping hand and empathetic ear to someone in need; you never know you might save someone's life.

~ Anonymous